Lekhny post -09-Dec-2021

                                 MY LONELINESS

Every morning I get up with a new hope to fight my loneliness and spend a delightful day ahead. Though I get up with great spirit to fight this evil, it engulfs me so much that I start choking up within a few hours. I feel that my dark shadow is haunting me and making fun of me that I am so lost and lonely. I want to break these clutches, but they are so powerful that I fail to break them. With this evil empowering me tight, my brain starts disturbing me with a chain of thousands of questions creeping and haunting me. I try to keep myself busy in my daily chores, but they seem dull doing every day. I try to channel my thoughts towards positivity, but I feel that door is shut and locked. I try hard, but I cannot unlock it. Whom do I address now? Whom do I call for help? Everybody seems so busy in their world. Am I the only one drowned in this deep dark unknown well?

I call my friends, but they are busy. I try to chat with my social media friends, but everybody makes you a friend for a purpose. Everybody is selfish. Where do I search for that devoted friend who can sit by me, listen, console, and tell me, "all is well." I cry and flow my frustrations, but they are so robust that they develop even before my tears dry. The hollow created inside is pulling me into it like a magnet. My soul is melting bit by bit into it. But who will comprehend it?

 I wish I could fly. I would fly and go away from these mean people into those land where people meet for love and compassion. They do not meet us for a selfish purpose but help us drive this dense fog surrounding us called depression. Depression may seem to be a trivial problem, but it has the power to take one's life. It is the mother of all mental problems. It develops because as social animals, we have the urge to love and be loved, we have an earnest desire to be understood, but when these feelings are curb, it starts sprouting. In today's world, nobody has time for another person. We are all running towards an infinite realm. We have no time to hold the finger of another person who wants to walk but cannot move. We leave them behind as though they are no worthy of living—the feeling of not being laudable ruins the inner self and destroys the reason to live. But whom to complain? No one wants to listen. What a pity to live in this world where no one wants to know another's problems. If they intend to understand, it will either be to make fun or criticize, but never to resolve.

Come on, friends, let us not become like those dinosaurs who killed each other for greedy targets and love each other. We all want our kids to be successful, but how? Is earning money and having lots of cash mean accomplishment? We are just training them to be robots. We are snatching from them the essential quality, and that is to mingle and appreciate each other.  Mother Theresa, we all respect and love, but do we educate our children with the values she had and ask them to be like her? We teach them to be busy and lead a mechanical life such that they have no time for their parents in old age. Finally, we complain. What a pity.

           …………………NOOR TABASSUM……………………